life, if i had time

here are the girls. fern is almost 3 months old, and sage is 22 months. life has been a little insane lately. i expected it to be hard, but i think it's always hard to know what that looks like, or how the heart will react to the difficulty.
i won't say i'm proud of most of my work so far with two. i've lost my patience (if i even felt like i started the day with any) by 8 am, used hundreds of time outs, and lots of spanks. fern has been sick a lot, and has needed lots of attention ontop of the hours a day she nurses, and sage has picked up on that. that seems to be the source of most of the hardship.
we did take a nice little getaway last weekend to virginia. we got to spend some time with tray's brother and his wife, and it was a great time. pictures here
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i started "running" again, though i am just starting to not feel like a recovering pregnant person. it's tough! that's about the only time i get to myself at this point, and it happens 1-3 times a week. i usually come home to two screaming kids.
i'm trying to stay positive through this stage, and appreciate the little things during the day, and have the energy to be creative, but it's been tough! i'm sure all you moms out there can relate. fern just projectiled, i should go.

sleep

it's 10:49 PM, and all i really want right now is to get in my bed, get cozy, and sleep for 20 hours straight, with no interruptions besides maybe waking up on my own, only to realize that i can drift off for another so many hours uninterrupted. next to me on the couch is fern, struggling to breathe through her nasty snot accumulation, and offering up a lame cry. she's wiggling her swaddled body. we're both pathetic.
she has an ultrasound tomorrow at CHOP at 9 AM, to check on her kidneys' fluid levels. part of me is praying the weather will keep us from making the appointment.
now she's trying to latch onto my upper arm. pregnancy does great things to thighs, arms, and chins. let me tell you.

fern francis duffy

Fern Francis Duffy was born last Friday, January 25, 2008. She weighed 6 pounds 6 ounces, and measured 18.5 inches long. The birth was amazingly awesome, and I got to catch her as she came out and bring her up to my chest!! She is doing great, nursing great and keeping me up at night as expected. It is amazing to look at her little face and hear her little noises. Her big sister is having a tough go of adjusting to her new life, but each day is getting a little easier...kind of. Each morning I'm having to rely on the truth that God's grace is sufficient for today.

still waiting for fern francis. still exhausted and trying to rely on God's grace and provision to deal with sage's new stage of temper tantrums.
can't believe i'll be holding another baby soon. a different baby. wow.

my etsy page

i've started an etsy page. etsy is a cool site where crafters and creators can sell their handmade stuff. check out my page to see the handmade creations i've been making. send the link to friends if you think they'll be interested. thanks!

tired

so tired, so tired, so tired. it's the point in pregnancy when one wants to sleep all the time, but the body is too uncomfortable and the mind is too unsettled. but i'm going to try to sleep.
less than 4 weeks til due date of fern francis. not too many signs of labor coming anytime soon.
i've been making some really cool stuff lately, i should take pictures but i'm too tired. i was at the maternal wellness center today (in mount airy), and saw some of my stuff still for sale there. pretty cool, but my new stuff is way more fun. i think i need to switch out the old for new.

art shop 2007